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It’s been a week

Tuesday, April 21st, 2009 | Alex

Will I be making anyone depressed by writing this? I hope not.

A week has passed since we had Alex put to sleep. I don’t feel like tearing up whenever I see a picture of her, think about her, or see anything to do with Beagles. I miss her, but I’m happy that she is at peace and not in pain. I’m sure she’s found a never-ending supply of Portillo’s Chocolate Cake at the Bridge. And I hope she found her old friend, Samantha the Beagle.

The pack order hasn’t really changed in our house. I think Alex withdrew from the pack a fair bit on purpose since late last summer. She felt weaker and knew her end was coming, so it must have been a natural reaction on her part. So I think the dogs had already adjusted to the loss for the most part.

The one thing that has changed is the volume level. It is very quiet, unless Indy is playful or talkative. In the past, Beowulf would bark once or twice at something and stop, but it would get Alex started screaming at something, but she had no idea what. We would also get the screaming banshee Beagle at mealtimes, and she would get the other dogs all riled up. I guess things are more peaceful in the house now.

I still periodically think I can hear her snoring. Am I crazy? Last night, I was working on the computer in my office when I swear I heard her from behind me in her normal place crammed between the weight set and the wall. But when I looked, it was empty.

Despite my ramblings, I’m doing fine. I just feel that I need to mention from time-to-time that I miss her. I only really cried for one day, and there’s part of me that feels that is not enough. Sigh.

3 Comments to It’s been a week

Bolo
April 21, 2009

Bolo’s Mom here. It’ll take a while, but I’m sure you know that. After we helped our first dog across the bridge I swear I could feel his presence behind my computer chair. I didn’t look, because I knew he wouldn’t be there, but it was comforting. You’ll cry when you need to cry, be it today, tomorrow or next year. Hug your other puppies and make sure they know you love them. Thinking of you.

SwissyHugger
April 22, 2009

Thank you.

Saint Lover
April 23, 2009

I think the natural progression of things just ran its course and it was a good time for her to go. You made your peace and were preparing yourself over the last year. We all grieve differently, but when we know its for the best and are at peace about it the loss doesn’t hurt as bad. Im sorry for your loss.

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